i miss them so much when we have to leave them. it breaks my heart. i tend to cry a lot. i cannot belive how much i love these little beings. i am so overwhelmed with emotions that i never thought myself capable of feeling..
jaxen is up over 4#s now and eating well. they are talking about sending him home at the end of this week or the beginning of next week.
jaeci is still on antibiotics and not eating. she has a picc line in her little arm for nutrition. they are going to let her eat on thursday and get her up to full feeds by the weekend. so she may be able to come home the end of NEXT week. she is just under 4#s, she will catch up to him once she starts eating again.
my heart is breaking at the thought of having to leave her there, it is bad enough they are in seperate isolettes, i cannot imagine having them 50 miles apart.
i am pumping every 2-4 hours and putting out a sick amount of milk. jeani says it is enough to feed a small 3rd world country. lol.
my belly is still sore. very sore. i have been nesting like crazy since i got home and doing way too much post c/s. but i feel like i am up against a wall because they are coming home soon and jeani canno tdo it all herself, and there are things that i HAVE to do, like go through my stuff in the study.. so ...
anyway. i guess that is it for now.. here is the cuteness..
|jaeci and jaxen
15oct2006 nicu day 16